They say it's impossible to separate a mother from her kids, because the woman who gave birth to you is meant to be your Rock, your shield in battle and your bright light to guide you when all goes wrong. writing this letter was surely not easy, but as my children you deserve to know why my actions have brought me to this decision as if i left in silence I would not be able to forgive my self.
The man you call your father and the man I call my husband has surely changed through the many years we have been married. I shared the happiest times of my life with him, raising you but these happy times have been executed by a force that I can not explain. Married for 23 according to paper but my heart stop loving him 9 years ago. The feeling of butterfly's when kissing him, the excitement my body went through when being alone had surely vanished in to a existence that I am not aware of.
I have been sinking like a ship within this relationship just drowning and drowning until I can't breathe but then the Lord rescuers me in time just for me to catch enough breathe then I go down again. I did not do wrong against your father since the day we met, but he has decided to do wrong against me.
His knuckles are embed on my arms and chest, my heart feels the bruises throbbing day after day and my back burns. Do not be fooled at what you see, your father is no longer among us, when I look at this pathetic excuses of a man I see the devil standing on top of me, laughing because he knows I'm to weak to do wrong back.
But I continued praying hour after hour, day after day, week after week, month after month till my prayer was answered. Because God does not deliver the miracle directly to you it's a form of a journey which I stuck in and now I have received. A man called Moses has rescued me.
I met him one day doing shopping he gave me attention which I had not received for what seemed like a decade. His eyes could read the pain within mine, speaking was not necessary. We carried on meeting when I had free time and then it happened I allowed my body to tested by another man. I know these doings were wrong but I couldn't stop because of the love and affection being showered upon me but before I could terminate this relationship I was with child... Yes you have a little sister on the way. I have decided to call her Rosie Ross after the both of you xxx
You see my children if I stayed with the devil I could feel this cloud of death hovering above my head were ever I went. But now I have been reborn and I am prepared for the challenges that may arise. Fear not I have not left you if you ever want to see me come to the fourth avenue in bakesvile and I will know when you arrive.
Love you
Mum
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